Day 5- A Time When You Thought About Ending Your Own Life
REALLY?! WHO CAME UP WITH THESE TOPICS? Talk about depressing. I need to find better 30-day challenge topics. Well, I have never thought about ending my own life. I have a very strong sense of survival, self-preservation, and a super irrational fear of death, so ending my life would be very counterproductive to all of those. I do think however, other people have thought about ending my life. As Taylor and I would say all the time our senior year of college, we were probably the most despised people on campus. We received the glares of death all the time. Oh well! We were told that there was nothing wrong with that. Plus, we had the JMU PD to back us up if we needed them! J
In all seriousness, I can't imagine ever feeling so bad that I thought killing myself was the only solution. Unfortunately, in my time working with ORL, I've dealth with more people wanting/attempting suicide then I ever care to think about. Dealing with those sorts of situations brings a whole new meaning to crisis management. I would never wish anyone to be in some of the situations I have been in. As an RA, confronting something like that can be very difficult. It's almost even more difficult to come to terms with the fact that you saved someone's life. That probably sounds crazy. To me, I think, "I was just doing my job." But, in some of the situations I have been in, I have wondered, "What if I hadn't been there?" "What if I hadn't walked into the bathroom at that very moment?" The "what ifs" can be very taunting on your brain. I like to think that everything happens for a reason, and those perfect timings aren't coincident.
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